Eyes Wide Shut

Funny i should mention rehab because there is a problem(not that i didn't know before).
codependency is me,
step one admitting the problem
that is the only step i know but that doesn't mean my road to recovery is any less traveled
this time without reaching out without self medicating without taking a short cut
this time reaching in to find what must be done which parts that must be watered
must make it work must make it grow
if i don't i would have crushed an entire human soul
which is worse than killing worse than murder.

those eyes i see everywhere
look inside them and I want to know but am afraid to ask
will it seem fake will it seem as if i am just appeasing
But i severely want to know what is the feeling
what is it the thinking when no one is around or looking.

the roses they live to remind
of the consequence of living out of touch
living with eyes wide shut.