THATS IT!

ITS 3AM AND I AM AWAKE BECAUSE I HAVE INSOMNIA DUE TO WELL ME. SO MANY THOUGHTS RUN THROUGH MY HEAD AND I KNOW THE MOMENT I LAY DOWN THATS IT THEY WILL ALL GANG UP ON ME AND SOME EVEN INVADE MY DREAMS. YOU KNOW WHAT THOUGH I AM SICK OF SITTING I AM SICK OF FEELING ASHAMED BECAUSE I AM NOT AS SUCCESSFUL AS I SHOULD BE OR THAT I AM NOT AS FIT AS I WANT AND NEED TO BE THATS IT! FOR TOO LONG I HAVE SAT HERE WITH ALL THESE VOICES TELLING ME I AM NO GOOD I AM JUST A BIG DISAPPOINTMENT AND THAT I AM SOMEONE TO POINT AND LAUGH AT WELL NO MORE! I AM ME! DOES EVERYONE UNDERSTAND I AM WHO I AM AND IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT YOU CAN FUCK OFF BECAUSE I CAN'T TAKE PLEASING EVERYONE ALL THE TIME I CAN'T TAKE THE SMILING AND THE LAUGHING AND THE CONSTANT WISHING THAT I WAS A BETTER FUCKING PERSON CUZ YOU KNOW WHAT I CAN BE NO I WILL BE! SO FUCK YOU TO WHOEVER DOESN'T BELIEVE ME AND FUCK YOU TO WHOEVER DOESN'T LIKE WHAT I AM SAYING. I AM JUST SICK OF WASTING MY TIME DOING NOTHING I WILL GET MY GED I WILL MAKE THIS BUSINESS A SUCCESS, I WILL GET MARRIED AND HAVE CHILDREN AND LIVE IN A BEAUTIFUL HOME AND I WILL CLIMB A FUCKING MOUNTAIN. WHEN ALL OF THAT IS DONE I WILL GO TO THOSE NAY SAYERS AND SPIT IN THEIR FACES! I AM DONE THATS IT!