Great LezBritain: Interview with "Skins" writer Ed Hime | AfterEllen.com

Great LezBritain: Interview with "Skins" writer Ed Hime | AfterEllen.com: "AE: And that in itself is a more powerful story because if you go through hell and come out the other side of it, then it’s a deeper love?
EH: Yes, it is then enduring love. I mean this series was basically Emily and Naomi beating the s--t out of each other nearly the whole time. They were bloody and bruised but saying 'I still love you.' It’s beautiful to know that as a couple you have been tested in that way and come through it."

Patience is the key and something I am desperatly still working on slow and steady wins the race you know. I know that whatever must be done or felt or changed is worth it because as it said above and as I have been told its the struggles that make the love two people share everlasting.

That damn wagon

I hope that this wonderful wagon of change hasn't thrown me off. I feel that perhaps I am taking some steps back but I know I am taking some huge steps forward. Both feet though need to be aligned or I will fall again. No matter what I need to take control of my finances again and remember that phrase that is such a kill joy "no sorry i can't i don't have the money". My health is another step that must be stepped up. GOING to the gym tonight no excuses. No more eating out not only is it expensive but its really bad for my health and not as good as what can be made at home. The postive things that I know I am doing is learning to get through some pretty tough times without relying on others to make me feel better. Being able to take responsibility for my errors, and having some self control not giving into every feeling I have. Of course I have my days of not really feeling it, but for the most part I think I am doing pretty good. The one thing I have realized in the past couple of months is that I have to stop chasing the lady bugs because they will find me when I am ready.

And another list

Of things I want to do(not in any particular order)...

successfully launch my community event

Pass my GED

Get into the culinary program

Win the penguin back

Make more money

Learn to drive

Finish a short story regardless if my friends like it

make more friends

pay off all my credit cards -only one to go :]

lose more weight/get back to sf look

find a coven

buy a home

buy an ipod touch

actually start saving

start taking the metro places

Go organic

Another List

List of things I want to learn to cook:

Mole (spanish dish with a chocolate chile sauce not the animal lol)

Shepherd's Pie

Actual chicken curry both Indian and Thai

Daal

Naan

Tomato soup (a good one not just pureed tomatoes)

Broccoli and cheese

puff pastry

crepe

poached egg

and the list will cont'

Tragedy

Crying doesn't ever seem to make things better. My eyes now red and poofy, I am scared of what I am losing. So much all at once grasping for the saving grip, holding on with just my fingertip. I want to sleep but I can't I want to breath but I can't why is it not better in the morning. Shouldn't life come with some warning. Beware love with extreme care. Everything you love eventually fades. All that is left is the lone superhero all that is left is a cold house with colder souls. Get over it they scream and shout its nothing to cry about! Its the memory that i'm mourning the time when things needed no warning a time when smiles were plenty and laughter constant. Sidekick very well may be but to me I've lost touch with another memory, this is but another tragedy.

reposting seems appropriate

this is a poem that i wrote earlier in the year that again seems appropriate:

A journey begun

but halfway through

so many years i have tried

yet now it seems is the time

now is my moment

onward i look

pain i will take

for in the end i understand

the happiness will be,

greater than,

when the journey began

OH I THINK SO! NO I KNOW SO!

YES I CAN
YES I CAN
YES I WILL DO THIS
NO MATTER WHAT
I WILL DO THIS
IF THIS IS WHAT IT TAKES THAN THIS IS WHAT I MUST DO
NOT A SINGLE IF AND OR BUT ABOUT IT
I WILL DO IT
I AM DETERMINED
ALL MY GOALS WILL BE ACCOMPLISHED